Freshers as a third year

Oh god i'm a third year. When did this happen? I'm so old... 

Freshers as a first year was pretty incredible. I went out quite a lot despite 9am starts the next day. I met new people, i went to new clubs, i moved to a new city 3 1/2 hours away from home. Yes it was scary but it was so exciting. I never wanted to miss out on anything. 

Freshers as a second year was different. I had my friends, I moved into a student house, i went out a few times, i went back and forth between domino's stands at the freshers fair getting free pizza for lunch. Life was quite nice. 

Freshers as a third year.. God i'm fed up. I'm fed up of the people handing flyers out- JUST LET ME WALK DOWN THE ROAD IN PEACE!! I want a sign that says "i'm a third year. Go away." I never made it to the freshers fair- which only lasted 2 days this year. I've gone out once so far and really didn't like it. I've never seen a club more cramped. No matter how much i drank as soon as i stepped on the dance floor all my efforts went into avoiding being pushed over and staying upright that i sobered up so quickly. I've also got no time for people who go to clubs to get with other people. I've got no desire to ever be part of that part of clubbing culture (good job i'm not single really.) I've also been having a bout of insomnia, leaving me grumpy and quite frankly knackered. My room's a mess which makes me more grumpy but i don't seem to have the time or effort to tidy. I've had clashes with my course modules so can't do all the ones i want to, and the department choose today to email me and tell me that they've had to switch my third year project supervisor from someone i was really happy with to someone i have no clue on. I'm worried what this means for my project. On the plus side my days have been really busy due to talks from my own course and being a student coordinator, meaning i run the peer mentor scheme for my course and have spent a lot of time sorting out issues with that and helping the first years settle in. This is a job, well its unpaid but meh, its a job i really love. I do tend to thrive when i'm busy. It makes me productive. Its helped me not to die due to my insomnia because i'm too occupied to be tired. 

Apologies for my rant. Blame the insomnia. I just hope i sleep tonight. A third night of no sleep may well be the end of me. 

I promise to be happier next time! 
Becky xoxo 

Productivity and then some...

Now as much as i love beauty and make up etc, at the end of the day i am a student. Its the biggest way in which i identify myself, next to gender, age and relationship status. Being a student is a big part of my life, its all i've ever known. I think i'm going to feel lost without my student status next year when i graduate (if i make it to graduation alive!)

In general terms I'm not the greatest worker, i'm not the most motivated, i'm a pro at procrastination and the amount of time i just spend faffing around could win me a gold medal (Rio 2016 anyone?) But get to exam time and i transform. Give me some pressure and i flourish. I'm not a morning worker really, it takes me a while to get going- like i dont start til half 10 or 11 depending on if i have to wash my hair. But i can work solidly (except a lunch break) from then until half 11. I used to finish earlier but as my courses get more demanding i have to keep going to get as much as i can done in a day! I could easily carry on in my zone but i have it in my head about needing to go to bed. I also have a boyfriend who i live with (along with 5 other housemates) who won't go to bed until i do- i suppose this could be due to the fact that we sleep in my room- the same one i study in so i have these things to put the brakes on! At home away from uni i suck so badly at working. I associate home now with not working and my brain switches off. Theres something about the atmosphere in my house that makes productivity very hard!

Ok.. i've really digressed from what i wanted to write about! Every now and then i get in a realllyyy productive mood! Normally this is a week night and normally in the evening after dinner. I just feel this buzz and know i have to do things and do them NOW! Its a really weird feeling, i feel like i'm separate from this mood. Like a dream where you know you're dreaming but you're living it anyway! I just know that i have to 'ride out' this mood of productivity and take full advantage of it while its around. At uni theres always plenty of work to do, but work things combined with my general everyday activities like tidying, washing or organising myself for lectures the next day will also help my productivity need be satisfied.

But its currently tuesday evening (i write my posts as and when but schedule them for tuesdays and fridays!) its about 10.35pm.. and its summer but i have one of my productive moods!!! There's absolutely NOTHING i can think of to do here thats going to satisfy my mood. I move back to university in 3 days but packing i know will not do it! It needs to be things that i can rush around doing, feel the buzz... argh its so infuriating!! what a waste of a productive mood!!! It it were only 2 weeks later i might have things to do!

So instead i sit here and bore you guys with my weird mood! Does anyone else ever get it or anything like it? Maybe its my mind being ready to go back to uni and be in that environment and frame of mind again. If thats the case i really hope so as i've not been wanting to go back really.

Anyways if you've got to the end of this post congratulations. Have another virtual cookie and a pat on the head :D

Becky xoxo

Beauty vs Brains TAG!

This is a tag i've seen go around on youtube a little so i thought thats what i'd do since i'm missing fridays more chatty post! Sorry for the lateness! 

Favourite book?

Erm.. oh i love jodi picoult books! I think my favourite one is called nineteen minutes but i also really loved change of heart and picture perfect! I also love books by Sophie Kinsella and Sara Manning!

Favourite quotations?

I've never really had a favourite quote..I suppose i'll have a little think and might update this.

English or maths?

Well i struggled my way through English GCSES- i came out with an A* and an A but I put it all down to having an amazing but scary teacher! I liked maths GCSE but to say i was shite at A level maths is an understatement. So i don't really like either but i suppose i'd pick maths.

Science or art?

Science science science!!! Except physics.. or chemistry...so biology biology biology!! Half of my degree is neuroscience, but i've done a lot of more general biology within that. I do like it a lot! I've done a lot of fun things in the name of science, like take laughing gas and being in a room with dead bodies and looking at human and rat brain slices and all that fun stuff!

Name 5 albums or musical artists that changed your life.

Well no-one's really changed my life but they've given me relatable lyrics or fun gigs or i just really like them...

-Taylor Swift
-Plans by Death Cab for Cutie
-Colbie Caillat
-Michelle Branch
-Superchick
-Ocean Eyes-Owl city
-A fine frenzy

Yeh i cant pick 5...But if you want to know my favourite song, i have 2! Soul meets body-Death cab for cutie and Sweet Disposition- Temper Trap.

Favourite and least favourite subject at school

Favourite= Biology and psychology and business studies
Least favourite= Physics or geography

Favourite celebrity with a brain.
Richard Osman-though technically everyone has a brain... 

If you could study anything anywhere, what would it be? 

I'd like to try a few different things! Sometimes i really regret not persuing business- specifically HR so i might apply for a masters in that! I'd also love a go at studying make up artistry or cosmetic science would be fun! Umm..  i'd love to study in the US but i'm happy in England to be honest! 

What is your 'nerdy little secret'? 

I don't really have one... probably that a lot of the time i don't actually know that much.. A lot of the time i learn for exams and forget all the little details straight after.

Favourite beauty gurus who you admire for more than their love for beauty/fashion 

Viviannadoesmakeup because she had the initiative and drive to go after her dream job and eventually got it! 
Sprinkleofglitter because i think shes an amazing mum, did a similar degree to me and is a happy and positive influence! 

If your channel/blog couldn't focus on beauty or fashion, what would it be? 

Probably some rambles about life and maybe science or psychology. Probably tales of getting let out by faculties when you do a joint degree. Eg in freshers week of my first year we were given the wrong timetable and ended up sat very scared in a 2nd year nursing talk, not a first year psychology one. 

Name some things that you're obsessed with that other people would find strange or geeky.

I'm fussy with which foods can touch and what can't. Umm i love to "clear things out." At my old job as a counter assistant in a pharmacy there was nothing better than the get the mr sheen and get the dust off of all the shelves! I also actually reallyyyy enjoy paperwork! 

Name 5 people (excluding friends or family) who inspire you. 

-Anyone who's brave enough to blog- no matter how many followers you have!  
-The olympics and paraolympics are really inspiring! Anyone involved in that is amazing! 
- I'm actually really interested in weddings/ wedding planning so i like the bridedeforce blog and youtube channel. If you pinterest weddings or updos for hair.. i could look at them for hours! 
-People i watch on youtube who help fuel my love for beauty and give me endless entertainment! 
- Anyone who reads my blog :D 

Who is your intellectual soul mate? 

I have no clue... thats a little creepy.. I'll skip this one :P 

Well thats the tag! Feel free to do it yourself :D New beauty post tomorrow! Yay!
Becky xoxo

To tell or not to tell...

That is the question. Who to tell about your blog?

At the current moment in time my boyfriend knows i'm writing a blog and we're having a text conversation where he's trying to convince me to let him read my blog but i'm not sure...If someone in my life finds my blog on their own terms then fair enough but i'm not sure i want to advertise it. I'm certainly not going to be to my friends "read my blog read my blog."

I'm actually quite a private person (Not the ideal quality trait in a blogger ey?) I was once in a relationship with a person who was the opposite to this. I really didn't like it when he told everyone things i'd rather be kept private, just things i'd said to him in texts etc. It didn't end the relationship but it taught me that I value my privacy in all aspects of my life. I know who i wouldn't want to know certain things etc.

I worry what people will think. People who know me know i have a large make up collection but may not understand why blogging about beauty is something i'm enjoying. Having a twitter and a facebook is pretty standard now but having a blog is still quite taboo. On twitter i might say i found £1.40 in the washing machine earlier and was wondering whether to keep it. On facebook i might put up pictures of me with my friends. But to put up pictures of my eyeshadow on a blog, or to write a post containing my thoughts on the honeymoon period in a relationship is something very different that you don't get anywhere else except your blog.

I also think that the person you are when you write may well be different to who you are to others in real life. For example I found a blog of someone i know who writes poetry- something i never knew about them, or i know that someone else i know is a lot more depressed than she lets on. Would she post these things if she knew i was reading them? I don't want to feel like i have to restrict what i say because people i know will be reading. I used to be pretty deep. Only listening to songs whose lyrics related to my life etc. Back then i was an awkward teenager and probably not genuinely happy. Now i don't do that anymore because i'm happy with who i am and i'm happy in my life. I don't have the huge lows where all i want to do is listen to songs to make me cry. Moving to university and being in my first serious, happy relationship has definitely changed me!

Lastly, along similar lines of writing about what i want, there are ways i know i want to use this blog. So for example if i want to talk about my own relationship i can. What i don't want to happen is to say certain things because i know my boyfriend is reading, or this housemate knows about my blog etc. I don't want to post making subtle hints or jabs towards my boyfriend in the hope that he might read it. Kind of like back in my msn days putting song lyrics in the personal message box to send hints to people. (Just me? Oh well...)

If you've got to the end of this ramble congratulations! Have a virtual cookie...

Do people in your real life know about/ read your blog?
Becky xoxo

I'm going on summer holiday!

Hi all!

My boyfriends been here for the past few days and I'm off on holiday today with him and my parents! I have some scheduled posts going up so blog won't be neglected! But I thought i'd let you know the reason why i havent been replying to comments and commenting on your lovely posts!

Becky xoxo

Introduction and blog schedule

Welcome to my little world! I'm currently a university student but will soon be out into the big wide world! Come with me as I blog about relationships and beauty! 

SCHEDULE! 
Beauty Tuesdays- A new beauty post every Tuesday including everything from favourites to hauls. 
Saturday thoughts- A new post every Saturday covering any topic to do with life

Enjoy,
Becky XOXO